country's past poetry : Japan

I was a young boy who lives in a bamboo woods

with no friends, no brothers, not sister in this woods

I was all alone that I have from the time I born

I was a kid who never been known

never have company, you could have say

until this Chinese man come here and we play

we could be called 'brothers with no bonds'

a 'sibling with no blood relations at all'

"I arways wanted by your side, ret me be your younger brother" I cried.

it was a sunny day and that man nod

with a smile on his face, I smiled inside

oh? who is this girl with a long curl on her hair?

there's also a blossom, gomen, a water lily instead

she talks like my 'brother', I felt mad

why? am I envious of that Chinese-like girl?

every time she went near my brother

I felt like I wanna slit her throat

with my katana that I always bring

well, don't think bad, it's just for a save keeping~

"but even so, she must be onii-san's sister, I must hord my grudge in my heart."

so I kept everything inside my own mind

until one day I finally kill her with a knife...

brother was so furious, he cried

I don't know why, but I felt sad inside

is this because of the felt of Guilt?

or is it because of fear loosing my brother?

I cried for forgiveness so I asked

"another chance nii-san, give me another one"

he looked at me then he nod, I know, he hate me now.

but even so we still hang up together

until one day he found this thing called 'opium'

I slowly grew old just like him

like my brother that I cared the most.

oh? another person is liking my brother

rage and anger is shown in my tone

oh! he took my brother away from me!

"don't worry nii-san! I'rr came to rescue you!"

but when I fight the man, he stood there displeased

why? did I do something wrong?

when I looked at him, the man strikes back

I dodge it,making 3 scars on my left eye instead

it was worth for my brother's love

but my brother yelled at me, why, brother?

"I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP KUMA JUST LEAVE ME ALL ALONE!

HE'S MY LOVER, NOW LEAVE ME!!" he said in an angry tone.

I cried asking for another chance

so he gave me one, bad step...

I look at the big boxes at our house

I helped him sending them all towards the country

when I know it was wrong I wanted to leave

He hold my hand and said "don't ever leave!"

a look in his eyes, so determined

but it was wrong, so I should leave

for honor, for my sake, please let me go

I don't have a choice,

"gomen, nii-san....."

I slash his back and quickly leave

met some new strangers, making new friends indeed

it was very fun, you could say

oh, but how long it will really takes?

I know someday this group of 3

will fall down eventually

so I hoped it won't ever happen

I was sinned so it shouldn't be happening

but I guess I should be prepared for everything

from all the things that I gone through since I was small

the only things that I could bring for you

is nothing more than pain, sorrow and death